In awe of the blue ribbon, and my hospital stay.

I am up, trying to eat a banana and drink some water. Eating small bits many times a day, and right now, I retch and feel gross. I am told not to expect to feel like myself for a while... baby steps..

So, this was my week.. Hope this might be some help to people who are going through similar things..

I drank the seawater, as you all know--you guys agonized through that with me. You feel pretty weak, since you have nothing but clear liquids. I was scheduled to be at the hospital at 11:00.

My family was all there and the hospital was packed. This is a cancer hospital, and it's overwhelming how many people daily are there. It's our number one killer, and it's obvious.

Anyway, they finally called me back (I was ready to get it over with and starved to death). Doctor went over what they were doing to me, and she told me that she was so proud that I chose life over vanity. She would get all this cancer. Anesthesiologist told me that he was going to give me an epidural. I knew that was a stick to the back, (from having my daughter) but he said the drug he'd give me before hand would make me not care if I was stuck or not. That was the last thing I remember.

My family are big Tennessee Vols fans, (season ticket holders for many years) and so they did a Vols walk cheer when I went into surgery. I remember none of this, but I am told I had a big smile on my face and met my older brother's eye and looked at him like "Why do you look like this?" He had his lip stuck out. They are a religious bunch and they pray alot and have alot of faith, but they were definitely worried.

I dont' remember anything after that except feeling like hell and seeing my family standing in ICU with me and smiling and telling me I made it through. I agreed and went back to sleep.

When I woke up and finally got a chance to examine myself, I had an epidural in my back (A nurse told me that they were pumping terminal patient type drugs in there) a huge scar down my abdomen with staples. My butt has been sewed up, and IV also in my right side (they didn't use my chemo port a cath at all) I had two drainage bulbs sticking out of my abdomen, and a large bag attached to what they call my stoma. (which is the Illeostomy) You guys can see why I'm a bit sore right now, and can't be my Spin fandom loving self.

I got out of ICU the second day, and they took me off some of the nutrition being pumped into my body, and wanted me to eat by myself. That was hard and I felt sick. On Saturday Morning, I felt like myself for about three hours. I was still on the epidural, and I was hungry. I got up and walked, took a sponge bath and my doctor came in. I was doing so good, she took me off the drugs, and I was to feed myself. UGH, back to feeling sick again and I really havent' felt myself since, although I had good days and bad.


My husband has been a rock. He slept on the couch from hell beside me for a week, and he learned how to attach the bag to the stoma in one sitting. The Stoma nurse was in awe that he wanted to do it himself and did it with very little instruction. We had a very eventful week, this past week. Giving my daughter away at the wedding, (and she's not HIS daughter, but they are father/daughter to each other) and then this. Things happen for a reason, I truly believe that and I was completely moved by this man who I've been married to for so many years. You take things for granted and I vow I won't do that again.

My mother's brother had three heart attacks while I was going through this. People who know her feel she is a "Melanie" almost too good person. She thinks of everyone but herself and it broke my heart to see her going through so much pain over me and then her brother. I love my family so much. My younger brother (who is nuts) and sister visited me one day when my husband was off doing some needed business to get us through, and they made me laugh which HURT. Did I say I love my family?

One thing that made me feel wonderful was the incredible outpouring while I was away. I was honestly moved to tears when I heard from my daughter through Penny what you guys were doing. I couldn't believe it. I still get teary when I see all this. THANK YOU GUYS so much. I showed my husband all this and he thought it was incredible and moving too. My daughter read Lindsay's piece on BAFB and told me it made her cry, along with all the blue ribbons up there.. ETA because it must be mentioned, SPECIAL THANK YOU for Nami and @gwaddie on Twitter.. I didn't get to read that till after I wrote that. Wow.

Anyway, I'm home and hopfully back to normal soon.

Really loved that Johnny, Spinelli and Claudia scene yesterday. Also, Jaspin were great. Good job Michele Val Jean!

Great job Bradford fans. I love you guys. HUGS AND KISSES.

What is a fan community?

...A place for fans to go and share their love for a certain something...

Over time, or perhaps even instantaneously, you can form a bond with a stranger all due to your shared interests. It's a strange phenomenon, especially via the internet, where people can hide behind anonymity. We get ourselves a screen name, put up an avatar, and let the fun begin.

Sometimes, though, you get the opportunity to form a stronger bond with a fellow fan. I have been so wonderfully blessed to have Spikey in my life. She's fought tooth and nail for respect for Bradford and Spinelli, worked her ass off collecting information on a daily basis for the greater community, and always been a true fan to her bone. She's not in it for the hot factor, she's not in it for the trend, she's not in it for the clique. Spikey appreciates a good character and a talented actor and has given up a lot of her time so that other fans could join in and share her love.

She and I have fought like cats and dogs a few times...(I think I got the LJ shut down for like...10 minutes a while back...You know I've got that *bitch* streak in me) and we don't always agree on storyline or what's best for GH...but this woman has also defended me against those that harassed me. She's listened to me talk about the troubles in in my life, chatted with me through the two most boring and somewhat lonely years of my college career, even encouraged me in many different directions.

On a bigger scale, what has she NOT done for Spinelli fans? She created the Spinelli LiveJournal. That's pretty much home base for most of us. She has every single article/pic/clip of Bradford Anderson known to man...She's the Vault De Bradford. HOW many times has she wandered into the hell of DD just to find us some spoilers? She's such a badass, even Mr. Anderson himself reveres her (Think Emmys submission advice).

And that's why it simply warms my heart that when *OUR GIRL* needs our support for one of the toughest battles she's ever going to face, you people are THERE. For those of you sporting the Support Spikey ribbon on Twitter, I salute you. Even Bradford is wearing it now. We're over 100 supporters now! THAT is impressive.

SO...What is a fan community?

THIS is a fan community.
(LOVE YOU SPIKEY!)

..and growing!

Show Support for Spikey..

As many of you know Spikey is fighting colon cancer. She has been through radiation and chemo and is not having her colon removed TODAY. She is going to kick cancer's but. We need to show our support.

Lets show our support to someone that gives us so much. She has given so much to this community spoilers, the whole Spinelli Lj, pictures, information. She is the queen at finding stuff. Instead of being a horder she Shares. Not only that she has a big heart and adores Bradford Anderson just like we do. (follow her on twitter @spinlj )

I made a twibbon to show support http://twibbon.com/cause/Support-spinlj-quotspikeyquot

this application will add the ribbon to your twitter picture.. also I included the images for those that want more control. (and may be more picture talented then me LOL) Also You can post well wishes for Spikey here and the LJ and I will make sure she gets them some how.

I will be posting updates on Spikey from her daughter on the LJ.

Today I catch up on GH (Live Blogging)

I will be Live blogging (and twittering as I catch up today)

Lots of text so click here to view

8:27am. I have no idea where I stopped off Will post when I figure out what air date I am on.

8:33am my DVR says I am on airdate 8-24-09. I think I may have deleted a few episodes before that. So hopefully I am not confused. Jason is all wounded Sam is talking talking to him.

8:36am ok I defindly lost a few episodes. I have no idea what is going on. Sonny is talking to Claudia he started a scolorsh for the the baby they lost. Does he does this for all the women he impregnats and they lose a baby?

8:41am. Morgan says thats random and then it cuts to Nik and Elizabeth kissing in the rain. Gosh I am so lost.. LOL

8:44am ff... ff... ff... wait Jax knows about the Dante?

8:55am Ok that episode is done. Realized when you play music and fast forward GH its like they are dancing. No Spinelli in this episode but adorable Morgan was so adorable. Why is Sam and Jason kissing if Jason was just seriously hurt???

9:01am Airdate 8-25-09 Jason just took Sam's shirt off and when I am fast forwarding Morgan looks like Spinelli. They dress a lot a like. LOL

9:11am Lots of Fast forwarding. No Spinelli yet, Jason and Sam have sex and then his is playing with a gun. That didn't sound right LOL. Saw Kristina and Micheal are still on the beach but she is fawning all over Kiefer. eww Kristina Fast Forwarding.

9:19am Episode 8-25-09 is DONE. ended with Elizabeth taking a bubble bath with candles of course. Candles are important. Where is my Spinelli???

9:23am Starting Episode 8-26-09 I hear Spinelli and get all excited. wait.. no is this THE episode. hits pause...walks over blogs. ok going back.

9:27am Why is Spinelli carrying Maxie into the room and why are they replaying the Jason and Sam scene over ?? LOL

9:33am WTF this episode is one big train wreak. bleahh

9:43am I am so taking one for the team today. If i had any brains I would delete this episode before watching it all. I will watch every Spixie scene. I must...

Why did Nik and Rebecca have sex? thats a strange way to get revenge. That crazy Cassidines

Impressed slimy Ethan told Lulu about the con.

9:55am Ok Episode is over. I am a little sick truth be told. That whole episode sucked. I will decide that those Spixie scenes didn't happen.

9:59am. Airdate 8-27-09. Starts off with a sleeping Spinelli.. NOW there is how you start of an episode. would have been better if he was topless.

10:02am bad wardrobe choice. Bradford looks like a 6 year old LOL. Maxie is running around half naked trying to trick Spinelli to have sex with her.

10:28am Why do they have to make Mac so grumpy??

11:17am Sorry for the Delay had to be a Mommy for an hour. My daughter is safely at her after school program.

11:40am I am so bored with this episode (still on 8-27-08)

11;45am a nice spurt of fast forwarding. wait Max just dropped Diane.. At least he did it on the couch.

11:50am Spinelli is in Jax's office. He did a trace on an email?? I missed that LOL Dante doing more laundry.

11:56am. Spinelli told Jax where the kids are so that mean Jason and Sam will be finding them shortly I assume.. Another episode DONE.

12:03pm Airdate 8-28-09 (my birthday)

Jax tell Carly that he found Micheal just as Jason and Sam swoop in and save the kids from some drunk beach goers. Where did Spinelli go? To buy ivy or something?

12:12pm Jason and Sam getting gitty over who gets deal with the drunk thug threating Micheal. Murder mystery stuff not that its been much of a mystery. Kate sighting.

12:24pm WTF,, Kate was 'undercover' the whole time a whole storyline happended (that would have been interesting) and we missed it? News is also spreading around that the wayward teens have been found.

12:28pm interesting. Jax pays Morgan to eat healthy snacks ot keep Carly's diet healthy.. Would be sweet if it wasn't so creepy.

12:50pm creepy doctor checks out Jason while Micheal runs off to 'work' and Claudia over hears that its Kristina that caused the accident.

1:05pm Airdate 8-31-09 Micheal and Jason comparing brain damage. LOL Both Kristina and Micheal know that Alexis has taken the fall for the accident.

1:15pm Claudia is vowing revenge Again.. LOL Micheal wants to live on the beach forever lol. Like that worked out so great for him LOL

1:24pm drat Jason and Sam are stopped by the kids I hate when that happends LOL

Claudia gets all creepy on Carly and Sonny tries and assigns his son Dante as his son's guard. I like like being your own papa?

1:33pm ahh Micheal is trying to do something nice for his mom ahhh. He asked his sister to keep quiet that the guy who killed is grandfather was involved in their adventure. How sweet.

1:40pm Jason and Sam makes goo goo eyes on each other and the episode ends.

1:47pm Airdate 9-1-09 kids are home and Spinelli is talking to a cut out Jason. LOL.. and the episode has a warm feel like a nice blanket. Michele Val Jean is by far my favorite writer.

Will update more later off to be a mommy a again.

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We Love Soaps Interviews Bradford on Red Carpet

This is a great interview of Bradford thank you to those at

http://www.welovesoaps.net/ For posting this video. The Red Carpet show never interviewed Bradford.

Emmy Round-Up

First I found out via twitter that Bradford didn't win the Emmy THIS year in the restroom at my work after just finishing my break. So I couldn't wait. LOL

Amy from the Scrubs Hub got bleacher seats at the red carpet. She posted on twitter lots of the video and pictures she was able to get. It was great because I felt like I was there at times. You can find a lot of her posts on the Scrubs Hub twitter http://twitter.com/thescrubshub

She snapped this great picture of Bradford being Bradford (you can see him down the rail.)

Lastly she got this video of him on the carpet.


Bradford presented an award with Kirsten Storms and Bindi.. Yes Bindi the Jungle Girl. Any moms of young kids have that song stuck in their heads now. "Bindi... Bindi the Jungle Girl...BINDI" I love Bindi. ok ok back to the presenting. LOL I had been waiting for someone to post clip and here it is.. So cute..

Oh one more thing. Spikey posted this cute little screen cap at the spinlj and its just too sweet.

Bradford and the Emmy's

SAD DAY that Bradford didn't win the Emmy last night. Even with my displeasure with the writing staff at GH and their treatment of the Spinelli character and the Spixie relationship, Bradford SO deserved to win the Emmy. He looked adorable with this cute fiance in the audience, and I loved he, Kirsten and Bindi Irwin's presentation on stage with Bradford carrying out a box for Bindi to stand on. :)

I was also sorry that Kirsten didn't win an Emmy, but I know that she was thrilled for Julie Berman. She looked so shocked!! Maybe the fact that this was the ONLY win for GH last night will give a wake up call to TPTB that some serious house cleaning needs to go on over at GH - and by that, I mean BEHIND the scenes, not continuing to kill off beloved characters!

Becky Herbst and Tyler Christopher looked dashing during the fashion show segment, even if I'm not thrilled about the Niz pairing. They are spectacular to look at, regardless of their character arc!

On a non-Bradford/GH note, I just loved Betty White's speech about The Guiding Light. I love me some Betty White!! She is such a hoot and a half and a real class act.

This was actually a fairly good Emmy presentation, but I admit to fast forwarding through a lot of it thanks to a lack of GH nominations. Let's hope Bradford is given some great material to work with before next years noms!

Good Luck BRADFORD!!!!!!

I'll be watching tonight and rooting you on!!

We may be grumbly viewers and not care for some stories, but I can say without a doubt that those of us at the "Bradford Anderson fan Blog" all love you and appreciate your great talent!!

GO BRADFORD!!!!

its the Emmy's baby

Tomorrow is the Daytime Emmy Awards that almost didn't happen. I am so excited. I am so excited that Bradford has been nominated. I hope some of you are having viewing parties and dressing up pretty. I will saddly be working till 9:30. :(

So I need your help for a very important question. Should I spoil my self with the results before hand or wait to find out till I can watch it?

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Watch the Daytime Emmys LIVE on The CW Network on Sunday, August 30 at 8:00PM ET. Pre-Show at 7:00PM ET

oopsie..

YES I told Rene' to post her feelings. I consider everyone feelings valid. Always have or I would not have so many contributors. Did I make an error in telling Rene' to post? Do her's and other fan's options not matter? I don't think so at all. I was reading the messages over at the spinelli live journal and i am sorry so many are upset over what she said.

I have not watched GH in two weeks. I don't even have a reason for not doing this. Spinelli is just going to be saying the same thing over and over again so I am sure i didn't miss anything. I have not seen the episode that has people so upset. I been very busy being a wife and mother (my baby is in kindergarten and we went to the beach before school started) I question that part of me is like Rene' and doesn't have the heart to see her Spinelli act this way.

Rene' didn't say to start a campaign to hate on Spinelli. She said that right now she doesn't have the the heart the watch a character she loves act this way. It brings me back to May of 2007. The crazy baby stalking Spinelli. When he becomes nothing more then a story prop. I don't agree with her words of "Spinelli Boycott" but those are are her feelings. I know not everyone is happy about the current storyline. I asked the question about dumbing down Spinelli in that recent interview because i knew it was a fan concern.

I am very much a positive person. I want Spinelli and Maxie to get married. I want Maxie knocked up. Give me butterflies and roses darn it. LOL I know nether of these are some fan favorites for directions but we are all different.

Then again I am not watching the past two weeks am I? Whats that say? People are down about the current storyline. What is it about that? Perhaps it seems in a few weeks Spinelli has been stripped of a lot of his growth the past two weeks. I would like to think he has grown. So expect the real Spinelli will be back soon. His storyline has kinda gone in circles the past few months and Maxie was a complete skank whore in the limo so hey all characters do hair brained things that not even their fans can understand.

Spinelli Boycott

Well, I debated on whether or not to post this blog. I sent a private message to Penny, expressing my thoughts, and in true Penny fashion, she said if I felt strongly, I should post. As she pointed out, I should be prepared for backlash, though she thought I wasn’t the only one upset at recent events. I know not everyone will agree with me, but it's my opinion, so I'm putting it into the universe. So here it goes.

I am boycotting Spinelli. By that, I mean I refuse to watch any scenes with the character of Spinelli until such time as the writers have decided to go back to the essence of what the character was intended to be instead of the mentally challenged buffoon he has become. My fast forward button will be in effect.

I fell in love with the character of Damien Spinelli because the cyberspeak, spastic gyrations and utter geekdom were nothing more than a cover for a MAN (yes MAN!) who was awkward, shy and unsure of his place in the world. Spinelli showed time and time again in his interactions with Lulu, Jason and a host of other Port Chuckles denizens that he was deeper than what appeared on the surface. He made me long to find out more about what lurked under the surface of his multicolored hoody.

Now, however, the writers have completely stripped away the depth of character that was Damien Spinelli and left him with nothing more than a shell of the former “man.” Now he’s not much more than a kindergartener, struggling to learn how to tie his shoes. How could someone who confessed such depth and pain to Jason a mere second in time ago now be so immature as to believe he and Maximista would live in the “regrettably pink room,” after their wedding? Of course, Maximista could decorate it to her taste! How could someone who was once more concerned about his friends than himself suddenly decide his worry over his proposal of marriage to Maxie, and an upcoming KARAOKE session?? - were more important than helping his friends find two runaway teenagers who may be in serious danger?

It seems like Maxie’s feelings for Spinelli are more about pity these days than love. I feel repulsed by their interactions rather than the spark of heat they once shared. There’s no other word for it – it’s ridiculous.

Even Spinelli’s proposal of marriage, rooftop supper and request for Maxie’s hand from Mac were more reminiscent of a mentally-challenged man than someone who knew deep down how much in love he was but perhaps was too awkward to carry out the task in the way he wished. Why couldn’t we see Spinelli share his true feelings in a deep and meaningful fashion instead of the way a sixth grader would propose to his playground girlfriend?

In the beginning, TPTB would always allow a glimmer of the intelligent and thoughtful man Spinelli was deep down to show through, even if it was only for a moment. Now, he’s a caricature. The comic relief. Not to be taken seriously.

Bradford Anderson is one of the most extraordinary talents I’ve seen grace the small or big screen. He has a range that exceeds many of today’s A-list celebrities, and yet, GH refuses to allow him to extend himself to the fullness of his capabilities. If I were Bradford, I would be mortified and LIVID at their lack of development for the character of Damian Spinelli.

I will be visiting the set of GH in a few weeks, and I may have the opportunity to see Bradford, having met him a time or two before. I’ve wondered what he may think of my boycott, but, after much thought, I’m wondering if he wouldn’t like to boycott the character himself at this point. Bradford is incredible. The writers of GH and their destruction of one of my favorite characters? Not so much. Let the flames begin.

DAYTIME EMMYS

Watch the Daytime Emmys LIVE on The CW Network on Sunday, August 30 at 8:00PM ET. Pre-Show at 7:00PM ET.

Bradford, Kirsten and JMB are nominated along with Tony Geary and GH writers. BA/Kirsten are presenting.

KTLA Interview

Check it! An interview with Kirsten and Bradford on KTLA

http://bit.ly/3mwDRO

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Pop Candy!

Bradford was a guest blogger on USA Today's Pop Candy!

Check out his entry "Why I Love The Daytime Emmy's (And It's Not Just Because I'm Nominated)"

Link HERE

Enjoy! Thanks Wubs for the heads up.

Bradford interview on the Rob Redstone Show

To those that missed it live you can hear/see the podcast of The Rob Redstone show interview. http://bit.ly/2mFEi ... Good quick interview.

I just realized he asked a lot my questions LOL. I tried folks LOL. I hope I asked some good ones.

Bradford to be on the Rob Redstone Show Thursday Night

The Rob Redstone Show 8-20-09 7PM PST (10pm eastern)
http://therobredstoneshow.com/?p=634

direct link to show: http://www.ustream.tv/channel/the-rob-redstone-show

The Rob Redstone Show is an entertainmaent podcast and live streaming show.

It will be a half hour show with a chat room.

*Jazz Hands*

Hey babes. I haven't blogged in a while. Lots of stuff going on for me. Moved to a new town, got a new apartment, transferred to a new college, got a haircut or two. You know, that whole "life" thing. I haven't really got to watch as much GH as I did before, but I tune in on occasion and generally like what I see. It is hardly perfect, but I think the writing is improving and I get the impression the show is desperately trying to get a solid grip on the multiple factors they have to consider. It is definitely ten times better than it was in early spring, which to this lifetime-fan felt like the lowest point the show has ever been. Mayve GH is trying to get a lot of complicated ducks in a row and I know that requires a patient audience.

I have mixed, but mostly good feelings about fall sweeps, and I'm enjoying Spinelli's continued importance both in dramatic and comedic aspects of the show. The Karaoke storyline totally blew me away and I have to give major props to Bradford and Kirsten for pulling that off beautifully.

Anyways, I'll try to blog more often. Ta Da!

I am always on Twitter, and you can follow me @Lindsay_007

Bradford on Good Day Atlanta this morning.

Great video



link : Bradford on Good Day Atlanta

Carts the Movie showing

The independent movie that Bradford was in a few years ago "Carts" will be shown at Villanova University September 24th at 9pm

I am bummed this is so far away because i would love to see this movie some day.

Links:

Offical movie website http://www.insamwetrust.com/

screen shots and a review http://bradfordanderson.net/search/label/carts%20the%20movie

Help my nephew help children with cancer.

My sweet soon to be 9 year old nephew is having a charity concert instead of having a birthday party. I am so very proud of him. PLEASE think about supporting him. A donation for any amount will be a great help. It would mean so much to me.

More info can be had here. http://evanscharityconcert.com/ including how to make an online donation.

(I promise not to spam the board I may post one or two more times about this I am just so proud of him and want to support him)